...observe...react...

Sleep is underrated. Probably, one of the most underrated things in this world. A lot of people don't really value sleep. It often is too late when we realize the price of sleep. Just like anything, we only learn how to value it when we lose it. Sleep is really important to me now because it remains to be my sanctuary, a refuge from all those horrors the world makes us face. It also serves as a reminder that no matter how chaotic it can become, when we wake up, we can face a new day with renewed hope and determination to keep going on.

Have you ever imagined a world wherein you played God? Have you fantasized about things you know never happened or would never happen? Well, I have ever since I was a kid. Even when I was a kid, I always imagined worlds where everything was suddenly better. My imagination served as an escape route from reality. Well, I thought it was a harmless way of entertaining myself. I never thought how severe the consequences would be that I didn't listen to one of my older brothers when he told me to stop. Now, I understand. It has become my addiction, my drug. I became so dependent on my makeshift realities that I become stuck in them. Of course, I had to pay the repercussions, and I still am. The opportunity costs I took were more valuable than I had previously perceived. Only now do I realize the fault in my decision. I lost time. I lost the time to do things I needed to do (e.g. homework). More importantly, I lost time that I could have used to be with my friends and family. Thus, I beca...

Familiar memories brought about by photo hunting caused an overflowing sensation of nostalgia. Then, something struck me. For the majority of my stay in Pisay, trends show that the more I spend time with a person, the closer our friendship becomes, which is logical, but not necessary. However, I have observed two exceptions to the trend. I have known both of them since first year. One remains to be one of my closest friends even if we only get to communicate a few hours each day. The other, however, becomes more distant even if there is a generous allocation of time possible for communication. I tried to look for reasons why. For the first, I attributed it to the susceptibility of his mind brought about by being younger. For the second, I attributed it to his strong will and firm stand on his life principles. But I wasn't content with my explanation and so I continued to look for answers. Further understanding led me to believe that our very own principles and values are different,...

During one Chemistry class, my teacher discussed the principle of codependence where one's happiness is dependent upon the happiness and approval of one's peers or constituents. This is simply equivalent to the social needs indicated by Maslow's hierarchy of needs. Sir had a valid argument. Why be dependent on others when you can be happy with yourself? Then, it struck me. Can we really do away with codependence? Is it not inevitable that when some people become happy because of what I did, I'll become happy too? After some time, I concluded that we can't really do away with codependence, but the question is, are we codependent by ego or codependent by love? Codependence becomes detrimental when it is done for one's ego, but I believe that when it is done out of love, codependence becomes enriching. As human beings, it is almost impossible to live in this world alone. We constantly need companionship. We steer away from the path of loneliness becau...

Often times, first runs suck. Why? Because it is almost always during first runs that we are at our most senseless, rashest, reckless, heedless, thoughtless, daftest and unwise state. The combined powers of innocence and ignorance surely turns us into fools. Guess what? That's perfectly fine as long as you learn from those first runs. But then again, we're still probably very stupid during the second run. possibly stupid during the third run. slightly stupid during the 4th run and it goes on and on. Again, it's perfectly fine as long as you learn, and it's not even that difficult to learn. All we have to do is observe and analyze. Then, we can react accordingly and properly. I guess I envisioned this blog as a collection of my observations and my thoughts regarding them. I guess I also want to write about what I plan to do and how an observation may change my life. I hope this may turn out to be more productive than my usual plans. :D