Different

I've always been told what makes me different, sets me apart; that it is my uniqueness which makes me special. I do not know if there is truth in that. What I do know is that being different can hurt because the more different a person is, the less understood that person is. And to have no one able to understand you, it's painful. It feels like you have to solve every problem on your own. I guess that's what makes it painful, the loneliness.

I don't know how. I don't know why, but I believe we humans can only go so far when we're alone. We are always in search for companions. Now, I'm not saying that we should find people like ourselves. Yes, it is easier to be understood by someone like ourselves, but I also believe that true companions can be found in people who are willing to listen to us and open their hearts and minds to understand us.

I admit there are times I wish I'd be like any other person my age. There are also times when I am happy that I'm different. It must be confusing for you. At first, I blame being different for being alone. Now, I want to be different. I hope you do not think I am bipolar. Well, I guess the point is I want to believe in a world where being different doesn't mean nobody is going to understand me. Yes, I may have started in loneliness due to my difference, but I want to, no, I need to believe that someday, I will find true companions who may or may not be different from me yet are, nonetheless, able to understand and remove me from my loneliness.

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